An old struggle has re emerged over me tonight it has my mind and stomach in a massive knot. I feel my life is on hold until I deal with this situation and problem again.
It feels like I have many sticking plasters in my life , all allowing me to live a continuous lifestyle but deep down there’s a current of discomfort. This has resurfaced again after a conversation that I wasn’t part of but I was spoke about in it. This same conversation resurfaces now and again and it hurts every time it’s retold to me.
This very subject I raised or touched upon with someone last week and I had a massive gulp then too. There’s no hiding away this time I think.. Words will have to be spoken.  I feel like there’s a total disconnection in my life and it’s gonna have to be worked on before anything else.
This is another brave moment but that has to be aired. Until then I’m going to dust down my inner strength once again and get ready for even more openness.
Much love to you …
Adrian ?
