Finding something that’s so simple and special, what is it.. ?. Well I can tell you it’s my inner love.. It’s been a long hard year on success’s and failures. Many many days and weeks of overwhelming thoughts and emotions running wild. Lots of love given to me in writing and in faith and the grandest of wishes. The biggest blessings and smiles to have ever been shared have landed fair and square on my life. I know some of the most amazing positive people to have ever walked the planet and I am so very grateful and lucky to have so much LOVE in my life.
Some friends have been so supportive in so many ways and they probably don’t know that they have but I’ve had to tell some that they are MAGICAL and i hold them in high esteem.
Some of my friends are rock solid in support and understanding and have been similar stuff so they know how I feel and it feels so good to be not so alone in my feelings. One of my long standing friends has supportive intentions and intelligence on human behaviour and psychology , also been trained in youth work in Barnard Castle with over the years with the YMCA, .He later moved into the realms of helping Young offenders become rehoused in Lancashire.
Now he is a super super guy.. He’s helped me on many occasions , steady my logics , plus help me when I was really and close to ending my days here on earth, one night in particular I was so close to phoning the Samaritans a few years back. It was an hour or night of despair. I thought to my self, if I feel like this in the morning I’m definitely phoning someone. Anyway I ended up chatting to my mate Rafa and counsellor a few days later , both very concerned at the time. It was my lowest , though I have felt shit lately out of despair but not wanted to end things. That’s coz I’ve loads of love in my life and of course I have the full responsibility of my sister now.. Although she has a home to look after her.. I still have to be here for her.. x
I must tell you overthinking is a blinking killer, unhelpful thinking patterns can destroy your life in many ways. It can Destroy friendships as overthinking is so unhealthy for you and me. Saying this I love my friends who are so supportive and love living a positive life. That’s all I can say really.
Until I cross your path again, keep well,
keep shining and looking forward with joy in your hearts.
Adrian x 🌟🥰🌟.
