Morning my good friends.
Is this the daring question. This profound question came tumbling back to me on Sunday whilst at the beach with my Grandson.
It did begin to eat me up as once again , that I didn’t push myself to the limits and dare to win . Am I seeing this all wrong ? . Memories of the very first episode of fear or one I could remember at least 😂.
Is it a case of so what ? and why do I give it so much power over me.
Is the past in the past and we should never go there? .
I Have gone there and it’s buzzing around in my head until I open up on it.
Its a story of way back when I was a Sea Scout. I quite liked this period of my life . It gave me something of interest away a Insular family life of living in a world of alcoholism . One particular summer back in the late 70’s we as a scout group ventured on weekend away at Tawd Vale just outside Ormskirk. Tawd Vale is an adventure site for Scouts from within the Merseyside .
Its a lovey wooded area full of little dips , hills and dense Rhododendrons, so I can remember. Oh those were the days. 🤗🥰.
Who dares wins hey? If that’s pushing that little bit extra harder to complete a task that you’d never normally do , then possibly yes. Or does it really matter if we choose the higher decision or not? . It has bothered me or I wouldn’t be writing about it .
So back in the wooded camp site with all the different groups of scouts from surrounding areas. I think we were the only Sea Scouts there. Nevertheless what I’m driving towards is a moment when I didn’t dare to go beyond my limits as I saw a £5 note sitting on the bottom of the swimming pool floor.
Hells bells! I told a friend and he dived down to reach the note by himself and reaped the rewards. I couldn’t believe it. I found it , yet didn’t dare to dive down and someone else took it. ! .
An exceptional moment of my time at Tawd Vale was all the different scout groups singing around the camp fires “ Ging Gang Goolie” What an amazing moment. Absolutely out of this world all the groups in the distance singing the same and trying to sing the loudest! 😁💛🌟. Wonderful memories.
That’s was me then and now I’m seeing myself in a More loving Light then ever.
So what triggered these thoughts on Sunday. Well , when Nathan and I go the the beach,I go searching for particular pieces of driftwood. I found such a item on this particular occasion that really took my fancy but I thought it’s rather large to walk off the beach with it. One, I didn’t want people thinking I’m odd! and two, do I really need it right now?. As the craft work I’m doing for my garden didn’t need such a huge piece . So those little words came into my head
“ Who Dares Wins” . I didn’t dare. Looking at it in a better light I feel a whole lot better not having it clutter my garden space as it’s limited at best at the moment.
So that was that . My garden space is slowly coming together with my Fence of love nearly finished apart from craft work . I’m really looking forward to getting crafty! 🥰⭐️♻️.
And on other Fears well..
Another part of that I couldn’t dare was getting past my fear of heights. Although my current counsellor said when I first met her a couple of years ago, she could help me with that . Ermmm .. nope!
To be honest we really didn’t try with it as we plenty of other stuff to do.
I think it would take baby steps rather than plunging myself in the Deep like I did at “Go Ape”. What a frightening but very frilling for the guys that completed experience 🤔😅🙃.
Have you any thoughts of experiences that trigger happy thoughts, more happy ones than others , but who we are is just that. Acceptance of all of us , our little sub pockets of self doubt too. Xx
I’m not wrestling with my inner demons , I’m accepting them ! Full 🛑 stop.
Hope I’ve given you something of interest and something you can work with yourself.
Sending your my ever lasting natural glowing love.
Positively Adrian 😁⭐️.
💥All words written in my own experiences 💥