Hi Guys, It’s Friday evening chill time after a tough week at work physically, not mentally in work. I’ve reserved the mental stuff for my personal life. This has me opening up on my inner world.. , delve into the depths or that place that feels kinda emotional. In the centre of my being, a vibrations running through me. I have already done to a degree this week with a chat to my personal life / business life coach. Saying this my overwhelm is with me most of the time these days. I know exactly what it is but the only thing I can think of is to keep on driving forward with my love and light✨🌟. Otherwise I really don’t really want to know how I’d be without pushing myself even further. Saying this my feelings and overwhelm are fluttering once again as I wrote these words… I really don’t know how to navigate this one.. maybe take a deep breath first…
So ,
My friend Jane is a great listening ear but also has many strategies to help you find your way again. My stress bucket has been overflowing of late with umpteen different official tasks to move through, to the point that I have begun to lose sight of what’s important. My inner harmony.🥰✨.
Jane has amazing insights on how to live a life in our own personal well being, as well as looking how to improve our business and working life. .Me of late I have had many testing times, this year has been challenging to say the least. Everything is moving in the right direction, little by little. Step by step.
In my conversation with Jane , she asked me some difficult questions and then asked me what I thought my anchor’s where ? .
My anchors being ;
🌟Linedancing, Pilates, Dates with Nature, Self love and journaling , maybe more will come but I don’t want to complicate things. 🌟.. . Currently missing my counsellor as she’s had an operation, so she’s taking some time off .🥰. Hopefully she’s recovering well.
My chat with Jane was so very difficult emotionally and different. Jane asked as soon as we sat down more or less , to talk for five minutes as she set a timer on her phone. I completely managed that. Off loading the frustrations of the moment. Haha. I felt sorry for her and apologised. .Though there was a little undercurrent that I didn’t release from my inner thoughts , this feeling has been with me absolutely ages. I have a feeling of what it might be ..it feels rawer as each day passes. In these few moments talking to Jane my inner vibrations felt completely vulnerable .
Jane spoke of my attachments and connections to all the People that are in my life , and there are many souls , incredible people who I am completely in awe with and can’t do anything about. They are who they are. People in there right. Who I don’t know who they truly are, though I see them regularly. There are connections and connections within my group of friends. I am fond of my friends , really fond of some. I just need to find that fondness for myself. Maybe then I won’t seek so much from my friends . One of my failings apparently. Seeking elsewhere. I love my inner connections with some of dearest, but to direct more love towards myself and maybe my relationships with others wil become more balanced. 🥰✨👌.
As we chatted further i became slightly vulnerable with my undercurrent vulnerabilities rippling through me. I was so very near breaking down into the land of watery eyes. I got completely what Jane was saying, she hit the nail on its head. My Mum use to say
,’ you take yourself wherever you go’.
Meaning your thoughts, your feelings, desires, passions, your loves , your good intentions and bad habits and with me well from my past and to some extent living with the overwhelming feelings of fear and negativity. I give much and do much overthinking. These days I have more harmony and happiness floating through my veins. It feels damn good.
Changing focus on my external life , will hopefully change my internal world thats love. Or is it the other way around? . I am creature of connections and loving ones especially. How I navigate this has been the most difficult part of living a balanced life. A harmonious life.
Some days have been incredibly difficult, so without breaking down or having the feeling my heart is getting ripped out of my chest, I have to find my way back to me. My four anchors will hopefully help me on my way. We have set a time to two weeks to get my four avenues to happiness firmly established and interwoven into my life. To help me get back on track but also to make connections with me and my life . My colourful aura of energy, my harmony , my love, passion that keeps me in tune of who I am. I feel I’ve let myself get battered and bruised by my own inner , discomforts of late. To find a better connection with my outer group of friends, the only option is to move on up into mine 🦋💚🌟💪🥰.
In a slight change of direction, my new watch on tv is “Sullivan’s Crossing “on Netflix. A lovely Canadian series, which includes nature and human relationships and love of course 🥰✨🌟.
Hope life for you guys is harmonious? If you have a story to tell or if what I have written here or in any post resonates with you, please get in touch. Any thoughts from you will not automatically be placed into the live feed. Thanks for your time and love 🌟✨🍂💚.
