Hiya , Wow my fair people,
It’s been a incredible week don’t you think? .
I started writing earlier today, in fact you know me. It was in the wee hours again.
( Don’t ask me why the next paragraph is in black – it sometimes goes like this when I start editing and putting things right.. . Maybe I ought to just write in black, then there’s No stressing 😂🤣.For me this week, I’ve had a million and one expressions, feeling’s, emotions, hopes , faithfulness’s, loves, wonders, aspirations,and admirations . It’s been a hell of a week. I’ve learnt more about myself as I keep pushing myself throughout . Do we all go through this kinda thing? . Wow I’ve had some moments with some of my most bright and tantalising people I call friends this week.
Yet some I’ve missed too. 🥲🥰🤗. I have been wondering over recent times about certain relationships with my friends. Some just blow me away. Like the other night, a friend said to me , .’ I was one of his good friends! . Hells bells this was great to hear.. I felt touched by this..
🐾 I’m not use to people saying things out loud of the liking kind. I suppose this is where healthy boundaries come into play between a man and a woman. It’s kinda magical and mysterious this in a way .. 🐾🦔Saying the uncomfortable words like ‘ I love you’ , to your Mum say? . I remember saying it once. It was most memorable 💖🥰. When I say alone , what I mean is I think anyway. When I push forward facing my fears , there’s only us as individuals that can do it. We have to shake our own tree of life and push through our fears to make us feel good again. Trouble is we have to keep on doing it. Unless you are one of the elite in life that has everything sorted…
So I’ve been working on myself for some years now . My journey began around my first major split from a woman of my dreams at the time. This was a major milestone in my life. (1989) I’d go far as to say the wound has healed but I was very hurt deeply at the time. Without this experience, I perhaps wouldn’t be here now , telling this story. Writing my stuff. I love my life the way it is . I’m glad your in it! . Some friends I wonder whether I deserve them , because they are wonderful. Yet I guess I don’t know all about them but what I do see in them is a very kind Heart. There’s some things I find it difficult to write about with my friends. Some mean more than words and that’s the hard part. I’ve tried to put my thoughts to one side and I find it impossible. They always resurface.
I feel completely in awe of some people, this is a feeling I could do with feeling about myself. This is my downfall I reckon. Not having that loving feeling inside. I’m working on it in ways of getting out there. Exploring who and how far I can stretch myself. Not physically of course, apart from in my Pilates class. What an hour this is!. Exploring the physical parts of me as well as my spiritual. It’s surely a wonder.
Do you have a story or many stories to write about ? , chat over a brew. Do some of that self healing stuff 🥰🌟💛. Or just have an ‘ open day’. Open is great . Open is the only way.
Loving you as I do.. take care and keep shining.Peace ☮️ on earth, peace in Ukraine 🇺🇦.
Positively Me x
Edited 🐾 👍all words written in my own experiences 👍Edited 27th March 22 / time 7:50 pm . 🦔
