Iโm going open this account of these moments and say sorry for not finding my positivity over the last few days. Iโm sorry if Iโve been a shadow of my usual self. It certainly feels like that to me .
Gee Iโve been so on top of my life too .There has been an inkling thatโs things werenโt right. The stressโs of dealing with angry outbursts from our grandson at home, ( he can be a sweet kid too ! ) . Heโs designed his garden shed , Hiding hole , somewhere to go to cool down . Iโm impressed with his design actually!. I just need to find the wood ๐คฃ๐ช๐. And the space in the garden ๐คฃ๐คฃ๐คฃ. Itโll be done , I have a corner in mind ! โค๏ธ. ADHA we are all learning how to deal with it . Hereโs hope it all settles down . The uncertainty in life at the moment, pressures with work, furlough and all the stuff that goes with missing my connection with friends and family.๐ Just maybe things have just beaten me down lately, Iโm possibly drinking alcohol too much , having the odd couple of bottles every evening to chill out . ย Not doing anything with boot camp or Yoga as Iโm thick when come to technology, apps and getting on Zoom. Surely Iโll try again but Iโve a new free challenge thatโs starting this week.
๐Yes starting ย a challenge with another Man coach. Itโs a bit daunting. This time itโs with James Boardman ( The Dad Coach) .Remembering ย the last time I did this was with a coach that wasnโt suited to me.Tonight was good listening to James with his ย welcoming speech to the guys on his new 5 day Free โ Stop existing, start living challenge . A new week ahead . ย His talk seemed to calm me down a little.
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The other little thing that seem to settle me down , was listening to Felicity Kircher a young Country singer who lives in Australia. Only 16 and writing her own songs like ย โย feeding the fireโ . Arh.. sheโs a Gem ๐๐ and has great passion and energy. ( find her on YouTube) . You can just tell sheโs gonna make it big some day.ย I somehow have Faith in that. ๐๐. ย Yes sure sheโs possibly has a few years ahead of herself ย to learn and gain more experiences from others but why rush a good thing.๐๐ . I look forward to her future songs , Smiles and enthusiasm ๐๐๐ผ๐ธ.
๐So hopefully Iโm on my way back . Back to a place that doesnโt rock my life so much. They say you canโt live a life without negativity, it goes hand in hand with the Positivity. As in you canโt be Positive all the time. So When ย my moods changes to one of a downward type, itโs incredibly difficult for me to bounce back straight away. ย . The feeling of drinking too much ย alcohol and feeling out of sorts donโt rightly Mix with a down mood. Usually something triggers it and in this case it did. This situation tends to make me feel pretty bad about myself . So one solution is to ditch the beer.
๐ I have a week of New rules, new structures, new beliefs I hope.
So Iโm quietly going to go about getting things right again. No fuss , head down and do it.๐๐๐ฅ
I have another treat Iโve to do this week , this is to buy a collective assortment of goodies for my sister whilst sheโs in her locked down Care home. Gosh !!! ๐ฅ, I didnโt tell you , did I? . Ooh yes the Manager from Louiseโs Care home phoned me. ย Blinking Heck !!! Good news hey, in that Louise is well and cracking jokes ! , really.? Iโm not sure about that. !!. Iโm not saying anything, but I know Louise.. She is Happy there , thatโs the main thing and sheโs had a such a lot to deal ย with. With the passing of companion of nearly forty years. A what great friendship her and Richard had. This is no doubting massive blow to Louise , as they clicked !. She was herself in his company. In the fact she was the most open in front of him. ย Even when she use to tell him off. ๐คฃ.
Thank you for all your warmth youโve shown me. You are all stars and you shine bright .๐๐.
Your My best friends.
Sorry for falling once again but I aim to move forward to a new place of living in the now and all the Sparkles i can hopefully gather.
Take Care,
Stay Safe, stay Creatively Positive and Dance with life .๐๐๐
Adrian xx
๐edited 8th May 2020