I’m going open this account of these moments and say sorry for not finding my positivity over the last few days. I’m sorry if I’ve been a shadow of my usual self. It certainly feels like that to me .
Gee I’ve been so on top of my life too .There has been an inkling that’s things weren’t right. The stress’s of dealing with angry outbursts from our grandson at home, ( he can be a sweet kid too ! ) . He’s designed his garden shed , Hiding hole , somewhere to go to cool down . I’m impressed with his design actually!. I just need to find the wood 🤣💪🌟. And the space in the garden 🤣🤣🤣. It’ll be done , I have a corner in mind ! ❤️. ADHA we are all learning how to deal with it . Here’s hope it all settles down . The uncertainty in life at the moment, pressures with work, furlough and all the stuff that goes with missing my connection with friends and family.🌟 Just maybe things have just beaten me down lately, I’m possibly drinking alcohol too much , having the odd couple of bottles every evening to chill out . Not doing anything with boot camp or Yoga as I’m thick when come to technology, apps and getting on Zoom. Surely I’ll try again but I’ve a new free challenge that’s starting this week.
💎Yes starting a challenge with another Man coach. It’s a bit daunting. This time it’s with James Boardman ( The Dad Coach) .Remembering the last time I did this was with a coach that wasn’t suited to me.Tonight was good listening to James with his welcoming speech to the guys on his new 5 day Free “ Stop existing, start living challenge . A new week ahead . His talk seemed to calm me down a little.
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The other little thing that seem to settle me down , was listening to Felicity Kircher a young Country singer who lives in Australia. Only 16 and writing her own songs like “ feeding the fire” . Arh.. she’s a Gem 😄🌟 and has great passion and energy. ( find her on YouTube) . You can just tell she’s gonna make it big some day. I somehow have Faith in that. 🌟😄. Yes sure she’s possibly has a few years ahead of herself to learn and gain more experiences from others but why rush a good thing.🌟😄 . I look forward to her future songs , Smiles and enthusiasm 🌟😄🎼🎸.
🌟So hopefully I’m on my way back . Back to a place that doesn’t rock my life so much. They say you can’t live a life without negativity, it goes hand in hand with the Positivity. As in you can’t be Positive all the time. So When my moods changes to one of a downward type, it’s incredibly difficult for me to bounce back straight away. . The feeling of drinking too much alcohol and feeling out of sorts don’t rightly Mix with a down mood. Usually something triggers it and in this case it did. This situation tends to make me feel pretty bad about myself . So one solution is to ditch the beer.
🌟 I have a week of New rules, new structures, new beliefs I hope.
So I’m quietly going to go about getting things right again. No fuss , head down and do it.🌟😄💥
I have another treat I’ve to do this week , this is to buy a collective assortment of goodies for my sister whilst she’s in her locked down Care home. Gosh !!! 💥, I didn’t tell you , did I? . Ooh yes the Manager from Louise’s Care home phoned me. Blinking Heck !!! Good news hey, in that Louise is well and cracking jokes ! , really.? I’m not sure about that. !!. I’m not saying anything, but I know Louise.. She is Happy there , that’s the main thing and she’s had a such a lot to deal with. With the passing of companion of nearly forty years. A what great friendship her and Richard had. This is no doubting massive blow to Louise , as they clicked !. She was herself in his company. In the fact she was the most open in front of him. Even when she use to tell him off. 🤣.
Thank you for all your warmth you’ve shown me. You are all stars and you shine bright .🌟😄.
Your My best friends.
Sorry for falling once again but I aim to move forward to a new place of living in the now and all the Sparkles i can hopefully gather.
Take Care,
Stay Safe, stay Creatively Positive and Dance with life .🌟😄💖
Adrian xx
💎edited 8th May 2020
