Oh dear !, do you know who you are? .Just when I feel settled there’s something that keeps me awake at night.. Stress, stress , why do I put myself through this crud?. So lots on my mind but making a final decision, now this is the hardest and it’s been going on for weeks!.
Is this down to daring to connect with who we really are. Is this down to NOT being afraid of what people may say?. There is some truth in this .. So how do I decide on what I really really want ? Without the pressure of what people may say.. Now that’s tough! ?. I guess if I’m this unsure things can’t be right? . Can they??? Is it go with your gut feelings time? .
Whether it be right or wrong I’ve asked two people to look at finding a solution for me.
Its certainly been a tough year of decision making, finding solutions in almost everything I do. Why does it seem so easy to other people in my life? I’d say my good friend “The Professor ” , as I call him!😂. Stewart glides through life with ease! . My good friend has had a colourful life, achieving many things in life!. Going for things head on , yeah sure he’s made loads of mistakes and he’s bounced back. ( is this what I’m doing now?) His first job was tending a milk cart through the streets on Manchester as a youngster! , an eight year old!!. He often says the the Shire horse’s actually knew where they were going even if he wasn’t at the reins !.
From there he lived a tough life in a boarding school at “ GigglesWick “ . Yes our Stewart can tell a story. He’s certainly a breeze to be hold. His flamboyant persona kinda unnerves some people but he also bedazzles others! He’s a good friend and I’m pleased to have him within my group of closest friends.
Maybe I ought to take up his challenge in life.( is that not what I’m doing?) .Now in his mid seventies and seems to a magical way about himself. Always having an happy persona . Maybe some of his magic dust may just rub off on me when I work with him later on in this week.
Can you relate what I’m talking about or am I an odd ball?😂
I guess we all have our pressures in life , but how we deal with them. I think I’ve said this before 🤣.
Our Isle of Man court case is looming ever closer . I suppose that’s at the back of my mind too , having to pay a little more to the Solictors this morning. Would do it again?. Challenge someone who’s stopped me from seeing a loved one , I think I would but it’s taken me to hell and back . Much counselling, one especially for this case and the more recent with Gillian of the last two years searching for the answers to a life I wish to love , and my own personal quest of loving me. I have found this , thank goodness . Also discovering a cluster of People in my life who are Gems! This Has helped me leaps and bounds!.Its not all confusing. Some moments are absolutely gorgeous. Perhaps I just need to face more fears head on . Or the chill the heck out! Relax more , maybe take up Tai Chi again! . Or go swimming, or have more dates with Nature.
I’m definitely looking to improve on this year as we move ever closer to a brand new year.
To be an even more chilled person, ooow sounds lovely!
Now it’s winter here. I’ll have to find my way through the duller days but my light is shining more brightly than ever before and it’s absolutely gorgeous.⭐️💛⭐️How about you guys? Are you burning brightly through the duller days?
One thing I’m looking forward to booking for myself is a .. wait for it .. ooow I’m prolonging the answer because it’s divine!
Its a Hot Stone Massage!
Oh my word what a gorgeous delight as my memory recalls as it’s been a good couple of years since I’ve had one of those.🥰
The time has come to indulge in such a massage. Of course I’ll give you some feedback as soon as it’s happened! 😀Here’s to keeping it moving, moving forward knowing we count. In a kinda love for you alone. Yeah we have a love for others but don’t forget who you are;
Inquisitive, inspirational, giving, caring, full of faith, full of gratitude, adventurous, giving hugs to yourself as well as others, plenty of smiling going on! , learning to accept yourself even more, taking responsibility for who you are .. ooow heck! Yes we can do it !!!.
Please feel free to add to this list. ⭐️💛⭐️.xx
Lots of love
Adrian x✅
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