This evening was certainly a sensational few moments playing in the garden with my bundles of fun ! . My grandkids, Alfie and Na Na – Haha that’s our little brightest sparkle Alfie who reminds SOOOO much of Alex . And Nathan, a kid I spend a lot of time with but with his ADHD , it makes is difficult. He had a meltdown this evening but I decided to take him outside to play and a change of scenery.. Nevertheless there is a massive connection there. Being honest I’ve not traveled too far into the world of ADHD, that’s been more Grandma.. Caring for our Na Na with his special needs.. Grandma does more than anyone for this little one. Teaching him things , homework and all the creative stuff, clothing and caring for him , everything that a good parent does. She’s a Wonder! . His mum isn’t well at the moment , so one day when she’s well , there will be a special reunion.
Alex is one our Grandchildren I have an infinity with . For the years when he lived with us, he was truly amazing! Alfie is similar but my soul has been bruised with the affects of Childhood Alienation. So please forgive me if I have an outburst now and again. ( like now! ) Yes a grandchild I’m not allowed to have a conversation or connection with. But there it is . ! . Its more difficult than one might think! . Until it happens to you , you will never know!
loosing a loved one . Someone who was a huge part of ones life and to be suddenly taken away. It’s a fu✳️✳️ing abuse . But until it happens to you YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS💥.
Alfie , Na Na and I had some great Fun running around the garden, playing catch the ball , tag, chase me!! and loosing myself in playing with the children is Blinking Ace 🥰❤️🙏🏻🌟. Saying goodbye the moon that wasn’t there this evening, but it was a thrill looking for it !
These are particularly the best times of my life playing my Alfie. Just the same as my Alex times… It doesn’t take the suffering away from the absence of our Grandchild not being in our life, but there you go.. Life sometimes gives you a shit hand .. The most important thing is it’s not destroying me like it use too. I’ve become stronger.. Building character too and love for life once again.. letting life knock one around like being in a tumbling washing machine isn’t ideal but sometimes we need to go things like this to see your Worth! .
What do you say??
Do you have any similar thoughts and stories??
I had a few things to do this evening but playing with the Grandkids is somewhat Special. Time that sometimes comes around again but whilst it’s there I’m making the most of it..
So Alex , I’ve not forgotten about you even if you might think so.. Times are incredibly tough at the moment with the restrictions with COVID , but I and Grandma still Love you! and always will.
Sorry guys it’s been a little one story type of post ..
Until next time.. keep striving freshly forward with a huge smile on your face😁🌟..
loving you as I do xx
Positively Adrian 💫✨✨
❤️ALL WORDS WRITTEN IN MY OWN EXPERIENCES ❤️