‘I am certainly not like most men. I’m not blowing my own trumpet to the highest level, but when we are talking about self help and guidance through different books 📚 , there’s so many different authors to talk and read about. If you ever look that way or into the world of self help, the array of help is vast . Some books sing to you others don’t. Plus we are Not at the same level. We’ve all got different experiences in life or we read them differently. I’ve started to read James Boardman’s book “ Remember the mission “ . Even though in my last post I was thinking about my lovely Susan Jeffers. I’m only in the first chapter but I find it different to the roads I’ve traveled before on self help books. I’m certainly no beginner to field of dreams and I’ve worked tirelessly on myself over the years . It does feel like I’ve achieved more in recent years because of my sheer determination or knowing I have something in me that can shine so bright.
🐾The thing I find with James’s method and other coaches in which I won’t mention.. It’s way different to the road I’ve been on . In counselling it’s been about nurturing and sympathetically moving forward through my feelings and learning more about me. Oh my Mirror work was scary but very touching.. very emotional moment. This is also the way of Louise Hay and Susan Jeffers. Believing in the higher self we hold within. I am interested in other theories or ways forward but my magical bits inside me are holding out for the two Treasured American women who have helped people all over the globe. They both leave a legacy behind them of true shining lights. 🌟 And really I ought to stay with what I love the most. I am not stuck like many of the guys seeking help off James . I’ve been stuck but I’m gladly on my way to my land of everything I wish for.. 🐾
Yes I’ve felt the enormousness of love, happiness and the brightest sparkly bits inside me and from others , but I’ve also felt the absolute sheer down side of me. Like when I didn’t want to live anymore.. Thankfully to my counsellor and initially a good friend in Rafa ! , you know you are! . They helped me through a crisis I wouldn’t wish on anyone.
Honestly there where many situations in my life in recent years past , I didn’t want to live anymore and in some settings I’d wish the canal would swallow me up or I’d simply crash my van into a fitting concrete wall.
Thankfully I had someone I could talk to , someone cared in my hour of need. Yes I didn’t tell a soul at the time, it was more the morning afterwards, though a phone call to the Samaritans was so close.
It has my stomach churning as I write these words here and now. But hey I think I’m doing pretty okay , even though I had a blip over Christmas. I guess I wasn’t feeling “good enough “ which one of my weaknesses , which runs with practicing or playing with confidence levels. Asserting myself too is a big one, but sometimes I do venture into that new higher power. And it feels absolutely damn good. So all this talk about being a better person , I don’t think that’s in question. I think I’ve just to change a few things , like reducing my alcohol intake and eating less junk. Yeah of course I do wish to feel better about myself, more bouncy and smiley inside. So maybe I’ll continue through James book. It’s certainly easy to read and that’s a plus for me.
Susan’s Book still has a massive pull but I can’t read two books at once😂.
I’ll keep you informed of any interesting stuff. I’m off to the gym soon, a session with Adam my personal trainer. My stomach is currently churning so I’ll see how I get on.
In the meantime electric slide on ! . ( A Line Dance thingy , dance if you know what I mean 🤣) .
I’m here to thank all my multitude of good friends that have helped me without them knowing.. You are Golden!! 🤗🌟🤗🌟
Take care and shine on !
🌟👍🌟👍🌟
Adrian xx
1am Thursday 30th December.
Ps, I’ve decided to stay with “ End the struggle and dance with life”.
It’s more of who I am …
edited 🐾 9:11 pm 29th Dec 21
all words written in my own experiences 👊
