Greetings on this Beautiful Sunday morning. It’s crisp out there and clear blue skies. Not a breeze in the sky. Very quiet too, bliss. Just the odd bird tweeting , like Mr Blackbird, Mrs Sparrow , geese in the background and the flash of gold from the goldfinches, beautiful 💚.. It’s cold under foot, I’m not wearing any socks. What a moment… I want to keep as long as I can .. I’ve woken this morning to thoughts, memories of in a time past where I broke down in the land of tears. Oh many have flowed over the years.. erm … maybe I’m just an emotional guy🤣.
I’m kind of proud that I’m able to cry.. although at the times I have I perhaps didn’t think like this.. When I woke this morning, it was to a moment a long time ago, possibly Autumn 1990. ( I’m not sure on the year) These thoughts came to me because I was thinking about some of you and one in particular who is emotional right now. The thoughts of my counsellor Gillian ( my life Guide 😄) who also teaches counselling at a Lancashire College. I remember her saying she’s over awed with the amount of students she is teaching right now that want to be a counsellor.. and helps out with Student issues,. It’s amazing but there surely is a need for good counsellors . Especially as the world at this particular time is changing.. Having someone you can connect with is most definitely the way forward. I’m not saying you’ll connect with the right person straight away. When you know, you’ll definitely know 👍.
So back to my first Big time i entered the land of tears. It wasn’t the first time I cried over the un named subject or the first time I cried. I’m sure I cried as a kid , I did so too… but it was the first time I broke down in front of someone, in public. It is a moment as you can feel or read as being one of the key moments in my life. A turning point maybe? . It was most definitely a cry of an emotional state I never thought could happen to me , but it did.
I was sat in the middle of a common room, it was a social rest period of a class I had attended at a night class in Formby, Merseyside. A class I thought I wanted to do , something I was interested in , Psychology 🙄. Oh gee whiz I way out my depth . Perhaps not the right class at that moment of time.
I remember the moment quite well with all the different sorts of people around me, only one or two guys. As normal us guys out numbered.. I wonder if us guys just don’t like looking into ourselves.. I do , nowt strange in that is there ?🤣 😘💪. This is where inner strength comes from. 💥.
I was sat possibly on my own , as I was a shy person. I remember feeling out of my depth and teary upset over occurrences in my life and the teacher approaching me . The teacher sat down by me. She asked if I was ok , I said no , I can’t take it anymore.. I broke down..in floods of tears.. Oh gee whiz what an moment. Yes there where people there , possibly about thirty.
When you have to cry, you have to do it. Let it flow.. There comes a time when you just got to do it. Since then I have cried lots although not in front of my wife, strangely enough. My wife has remarked on this.. it is what it is.. I guess.. Nearly in front of Gillian, I was on the edge but it didn’t happen.
I’ve cried lots of emotional and happy ones too . Generally when watching a tear jerker of a film like “ War Horse “ . For me that film does it. And plenty other ones in the realm of romance or family stuff. A good cry changes everything..
Its time leave you here as I’m in the land of peace and quiet now.. Off to get something to eat for breakfast.. My cold is back with a vengeance , so whether I’ll taste it I don’t know 🤷🏼♂️ 🤣.
A date with nature might be on the cards today too . To see if Nathan and I can catch sight of any geese ..
Loving you from here ..
Hope you didn’t mind me taking about the land of tears.. I guess we all have them.. we are human beings, full of emotions, full of love , full of the good stuff. as well as the fear and anger. We are human and we have to accept who we are. It takes a lot of explorative times . Remembering not to get upset with ourselves.
Have a ultra sonic day. Full of breeze in your hair and on your face.
Rejoice in your day , commit 100% to your life .
Positively Adrian 🌟💫
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💥All words are written in my own experiences 💥