Hi ,
I’m so Grateful for having some of the best people to ever touch my life *in my life right now . I know I keep going on about things like this but sometimes like today and even last night in line dancing I had moments of I don’t know what to call it , maybe vulnerability , gratefulness of having the very best friends I could ever wish for . I guess it Was a little overwhelming, even though I don’t really know you that well. I just feel accepted. I guess that’s a great testament to you guys 😄x.
I guess my sparkle has a slight shine taken off it with being overloaded with many trials in life. Some of these are things I can’t do anything about , so I may as well not carry them around with me. Realisation is key I guess. I think yesterday topped it for me and I had a teary moment in class last night, of course no one knew. Hopefully no one noticed And today the tears fell from my eyes once again . The reason had nothing to do with dancing but it’s sometimes hard to walk on to the dance floor and leave what’s bothering oneself behind.. So I apologise now if you noticed a difference in me. Gee whiz, I ought to be able to switch it off surely ..
I tried but the more I tried the worse it was and sensation of tears entered my eyes.. so I took myself off outside..
It wasn’t until a certain dance came on “ Waves of Love “ . Why this dance ? Well , I like it but I struggle with it so it’s kind of Fun ! and of course getting help from friends on the dance floor is Just so right ! . So helpful, so out of this world . Thank you x 😘. Thanks for making a fun night as always 😄🤗.
I don’t know why I’m writing this, I guess it helps me but I certainly don’t want anyone felling sad for me.. I do have this need to write, I guess it keeps me sane.
I’m a man and i have to deal with things, yes I got over emotional over situations involving my sisters welfare and wellbeing . This challenged me yesterday and it is still not fully completed, hopefully tomorrow will see huge steps forward…
I met an old friend today on Lord Street, Southport. I have always time for my mate Tom and he me. Now he has a Sparkle. His eyes and his whole facial expression comes to life. He always looks pleased to see me. We only have brief conversations. We generally talk about music, he definitely doesn’t like Country music, he’s definitely into Heavy Metal , Led Zeppelin, and a big twist of the blues!😄. He also teaches people how to play the guitar to make a living and I don’t blame him because he is Ace on the guitar!🎸. I’m not sure if it’s mainly acoustic or not but he is amazing heavy lead guitarist in a band that only gig about 6 times a year.
Tom and I don’t move in the same circles . I met him way back when we were approximately in our late teens, 18 , 19 ish ? Years young at the Rock nights Southport use to hold, especially “ Sand baggers “rock nights. ( The Best Rock nights EVER) . I think there where two a week if I remember right? . Can anyone tell me differently? And of course “The Floral Hall “rock nights on a Saturday. Mid 80’s I would say this was..
Since Tom left the Rock and roll life style should I say , he became a Jehovah Witness and has been ever since. He is truly a good guy. Never once has he pushed his religion on to me. I seem to have the most amazing friends in my life and that’s all I want.
Isn’t it great how meeting a friend can change your day, bring a bit of the sparkle back.
I’m not saying my Line dance friends didn’t do it for me last night, as you are Amazing 🤗. I’m saying it was emotional to have amazing friends.. it touches me this group of new friends have accepted me. That’s me I think , sometimes I wonder whether I ought to be a hard tough guy ..would it be easier to get through tough emotional moments. I wouldn’t know . It’s never been me and I’m not sure it I want to try it thinking about it. I like being who I am. I remember my late Mum saying ‘ I was one in a million’ and I believe her .. I do have something, I consider myself to be a kind natured human being. Anyway…
🌟Now assertiveness is certainly a golden ticket I wish I had 🌟😃👌.
I think I’ve discovered it’s not a confidence issue with me as I’ve challenged myself in loads of stuff , I don’t even know why I’ve written about this because this is not an issue, it’s my cup being filled to the brim and flowing over kind of thing..
New day tomorrow, hopefully things will fall into place with some pushing forward in making things happen! .
Anyway my Friends hope I’ve not done your heads in and I Hope someone might of got something from this , what I don’t know, even if it’s a smile 😃 xx
Hope your day has loads of shiny moments 🌟😄🌟😄🌟😄🌟
Love to you all .
Enjoy 🎶 Dancing with life 😘
Hugs from me xxx
Adrian
Can you feel them? No!
Well I’ll send them again! 🤗🤗🤗😘
Wednesday 13th November 2019 Time 11:20
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