Top the morning to you.
Yes it’s still dark out there. It being 5:45 am. Oh heck I hope this doesn’t mean I’m going to be tired today! I feel it already!. Maybe I ought to go back to bed for an hour or so.?.
I’ve got to be at my friends Irene and Clare’s house for 11:30. They are taking me to a new for me line dance social in Freckleton
I’ve been thinking about this past week and what a good week it’s been on Connecting , especially with people Who enjoy my company. Inwardly , gee whiz it’s not been good.
I spoke to a customer friend on Friday. This Customer Anne has been on me books for about 18 or so years. Yes we have chats from time to time.
We had brief chat about the scary virus that taking hold of the world.
Her Husband is recovering from cancer and he was going to Clatterbridge that same day to have a check up scan.
I wish him and Anne the best of health.
What a man he is.
Anne and I where chatting on the subject of “ How so7 people are in life” . How the hold themselves and deal with obstacles that come your way. Like Ill health , physically and mentally.
I expressed that I perhaps hadn’t dealt with things greatly this week, I guess that’s ok?!.
Anyway my Friend Anne said her Husband deals with things on a level plain . As he doesn’t have ups or downs. He purely lives on a even keel. Anne explained That Graham being an Ex accountant has a fixed or level mind.
Is this the best way?????
I guess we are all different and that’s great. I just need to find or tap into my inner strength and push forward again. I need to learn to take personal criticism better. Whether I took it more to heart this week because I’d had a few drinks . I think Alcohol heightens my mood. That night in question I was running on a high , then a suddenly someone said something to me that made me feel really bad about myself.
My life changed from that moment on.
This week has certainly been different, a learning curve but how I change I’m not sure.💚( Do I need to Change ?/ I can’t answer that right now. I’m not gonna belittle myself. I need to nourish myself 🌟)
Being open with you guys helps. Although at the beginning of the week I just wanted to hideaway. Not put myself out there. Not express myself , as I didn’t think I had anything to give or loose for that matter.
Apart from you guys .
So would it be true, alcohol is the problem or my mindset or both . ?
I can’t believe how high I was after enjoying a night out tenpin bowling , then crash to the Shadowlands. Really horrible.
Maybe it’s other pressures too that helped me along the way. But I thought I was dealing with them.
So, I have going on;
- the worst internet service in the world. This can be dealt with.
- living with and educating myself in the world of ADHA . Also our little one might have some form of autism. That’s a two year wait for our grandson to be tested.
- Trying to sell my late Mums house which has its problems/ we’ve had 50 viewings . So that looks like it’s going to be an auction job.
- I have my sister and her well being to care for , although much is done by the home she lives in now. What a relief.
- We have my sisters boyfriend who’s died recently, so I have the care of my sister to think about .
- I have A little issue that’s arisen , Well a big one/ Erm Japanese knot weed. Who’s the Victorian idiot that brought this into the country 😂🤨. that’s being dealt with by my legal team.
Bless them . X
Meanwhile looking after my business and my family all the wonderful connections there.
Yes it’s a tough life , but so am I or as the saying goes !!
Arh well I’ve rattled your brains enough I guess.
Onwards and upwards.
As the Dad Coach ( James Boardman) says;
Stop existing and Start living !!! ❤️👌😁🌟.
I feel better for expressing myself to you.
Have a great day.
Enjoy the essence of you and others if you want too. If they are good enough to explore your possibilities.
If not Do it on your own..
Positively Adrian x x x x
💚edited. Sunday 10am & 9:30 pm