Hello ,
yes it’s blinking 5am and I just can’t sleep , so waking with thoughts on my mind. It’s crazy sometimes how minds have so much power over ourselves. Our minds can do some of the most amazing things too, like shut you down or completely let you SHINE .
Over the years or even my entire life , it’s all been a massive process of learning how I and the world of people who touch my life embrace and appreciate each other throughout our conversations.. Sometimes I’ve felt completely safe and other times I’ve felt the most horrible of emotions and I mean horrible. Soul crushing one’s, learning curve one’s, self hating one’s, extremely hurt one’s, but I’ve the most amazingly beautiful ones too.🥰
I’d say on balance there’s been more of the lower self working than the higher in my lifetime. I guess this I why I’ve had to have a life coach / counsellor and many others to help me through. Life has been one massive challenge, I love it now , I’m in awe of the efforts I’ve made and the beautiful people in my life now. One just doesn’t just become an adult ! Every day is a learning opportunity and I’m thankful of my own ability to love and care for myself, even if some people think I’m completely nuts for expressing myself openly.
I’ve been working with my counsellor since November 2018, oow,, it’s a little anniversary for me , it’s just dawned on me, haha. Those days we met in person, since covid it’s all been on video chat which is a massive lifeline. Without this sort of technology life would have been a struggled.
I’ve been wishing I haven’t upset one of my friends by overstepping my boundaries.. sometimes I’m completely not sure but hey I’m only here to help if I can..
Another thing or thought has slightly disturbed me this week is my personality. I just wonder if I’m a humorous guy? , hmm maybe I’m doing a little comparing here to someone else.., I guess being humorous will come come in time as I completely learn to let go of anything holding me back, like myself.. hehe. its a negative place , comparing.. It takes away your inner power, your glow , your authenticity, your inner love.
I’m sort of deep and caring person and I’m learning to love myself and let go. I’m finding the true meaning of happiness and it’s a slow process, this year has been the ultimate in these feelings, with extra motivation from friends, very much including the person I was talking about earlier.
Physical fitness wise , I’m back in safe hands in the Personal Training gym. With a careful thought out programme to get me back in shape in a safe way as I’m so injury prone. It must be an age thing haha.
Anyway enough of this and I hope you and I have an amazing day.
Don’t forget to inspire yourself and help to guide others to this place of possibilities if the opportunity arises . 🥰🌟🍁🤗.
Take care and steadily increase your endorphins , take a walk in nature 💚🌿🍁🥰✨🌟.
Love ya ,
Ade xx
hmm breakfast time ..
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