Hi,
When you have nothing better to say, leave it to the nature to harmonise you. Yes indeed I feel somewhat stuck in my thoughts, all my goodness or usual personality seems to zeroed out. I’m sure it’s there but I feel completely flat at the moment. It’s a strange , strange feeling. feelings that I had yesterday of what I can only be described as hurt, and completely wiped out. Unsure of how to fix things or even to approach my friends. I felt my goodness had left me. Or that it had been covered up by layers and layers of self defending layers of me.
Normally Tuesdays are of a Magical standing with my favourite pass time filling me with joy and good ol’ goodness from my friends. Very much a usual sparkly feeling. On this day and today I felt out of it.. , although I did mention something to my physical fitness trainer how I felt , after he reached out for me attend his classes this week.Hmm.. somehow I’m struggling to raise myself high enough to do anything, other than work . It’s not like me at all. It’s new a feeling and I don’t really like it but maybe it’s something I have to go through..
I’m also exploring the thought of joining a mens support group which are held either in Preston or Chorley, which Evers going to be the nearest I don’t know 🤷🏼♂️.
One decision I have made , is to make Wednesdays a day that Susan and I do something together, out of the house away from anyone else , like Nathan. I need Nathan free time. He’s beginning to grate on me .. plus Susan and don’t do enough together. So yesterday I booked a table at the newly refurbished Farmer’s Arms in Burscough for this evening. It was very pleasant. I made our date night and bought her a single 🌹 rose. It was so nice having a chat about stuff away from any shouting at Nathan. That child drives me insane. Apart from this I thought I’d leave it to some plant & nature connections to get my expressions moving.. love ya… xx
Sweet dreams guys.
Adrian x
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