Mondays could well of changed for me after attending “ Andy’s Man Club” at Preston NorthEnd football club last night.
I was very nervous to say the least but I had to attend or else I would of felt like a failure for not, also I told a guy , a facilitator I was going.
We, the new guys where met in the car park outside by a man, just to guide us through the building into the main room. After a while we were split up into 3 groups of men. Holy shit it was scary. Especially when it was our turn to talk.
We were asked three main questions,How was our week?
Talk about a positive moment of the week.?
Have you something to get off your chest?
We were also asked two or three questions that came through from head office, which are apparently different every week.
First Question of the ones sent to the guy taking charge in our room was;
if you played in part of your favourite book or movie ? , what it be? . Many people said a movie, like big men movies, like The fast and the furious!
I said I would be in a book by self help guru ‘ Susan Jeffers. “ Feel the Fear and do it anyway!”. As I have fears to beat.
We sat in a circle, a bit like the Anonymous groups and we were to hold a football as we chatted. So as the ball was passed around the circle and landed in your hands , it was your turn to talk. Shit, shit, shit. I was forth in my circle and to be honest I felt like a bit of a fraud, especially after hearing the stories before me. Of men wanting to take their own life. Mind you I have felt like that ,but it was a few years ago. Thankfully I’ve moved on from that and I’m Feeling the love of life and love from my friends, family and myself.
Last week was a low mood week after something that was said to me. I ought to be stronger than this surely? . Someone says something to you and one falls apart?! . What does that say about me ? I guess I am human and I have sensitive feelings too. Since then I’ve made constructive decisions on trying to improve my life around me and my wife.
I’m taking my hat off to the guys from last night. It was an powerful night, full of emotional moments . The ball went around the room three times, so after the second time it felt a little easier.. Thank goodness for this organisation. Is is very much needed, and as one guy put it. Mens mental health shouldn’t have the stigma attached to it like it has and hidden away.
Anyway guys I hope you have an amazing day! . I hope too . Though I’m coming down with a head cold I think. I feel it looming. But I’m happier in my heart and like I said last night. My low moods are shorter lived these days. I’m becoming stronger, lighter, more of everything with an open heart. Yeah !
Loving you as I do!
Positively me xx
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