Dear Diary
It’s only just Wednesday and in fact two minutes into it. After a good nights line dancing and being in the company of my friends , I feel kinda pleased I entered my space on the dance floor. The fact that I thought I might not come along here , those were my thoughts as of yesterday , especially after after having a head wobbling moment regarding this blog.
Hmm.. yes it sort of disturbed me as I realised I am actually talking to myself here on these pages. To be quite honest , I was Crushed by the thought of all these pages of writing my delights and fights with my lower and HIGHER 🌟🥰💪 self and thinking I might be doing someone some good somewhere in the world.
Somewhere, someone might of resonated with my stories.A bit like when I read Fearne Cotton’s books, especially her book “ Happy” . That book so resonated with me. Or Susan Jeffers phd with her books and firstly FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY , soon I became one of her pen pals (yes writing letters and cards in ink , which is a rarity these days) in some wonderful years before she passed on to the diamond meadows in the sky. 🌿
Yes I’d like to think there’s eyes are glancing over the top of these pages. But I’m coming to the realisation this site is for me to share my worth, and that’s enough as I’m currently finding a new balance in life. I wouldn’t say a spiritual one , though I’m keen on submersing myself into such a thing. This feeling is eluding me at the moment. 🌿
So here we go …
I’m totally pleased with mentally challenging myself in order to play a normal day or even a bright bubbly one! 😁😊👌🥰🌟.
Yeah I could have easily spiralled out of control and spent days in the land of lowness.
No I decided I’m not going to do that , I’m coming out fighting and I’m gonna brush myself down and get on with life . I’m gonna stay as POSITIVE as I can be.
What’s the point in giving in and being negative. I’m gonna keep shining as much as I can.
As I can feel within myself, I’m going to keep on trying to splash myself with positivity and wear it like a suit of warm glowing armour. Just like the ready break breakfast advert on television of old. Or I say this , as I’ve not seen it for ages.
🌟This evening as I lay on my bed, I’ve opened a book which I got for my birthday and never had the opportunity to read it as I’ve rolling my eyes over the pages of “ Think like a monk “ by Jay Shetty. Wonderful reading.
🌟So I’m glancing through, “ Why has Nobody Told Me This Before? “ by Dr Julie Smith. It kinda gives you an insight of how my brain works.
I’m saying “ my” as I have to keep reminding myself this about me now. Anyway Dear Diary or Adrian, Positively Adrian! or even Adrian Supersonic! . I’m proud of you for continuing life in a good way, in an open way .
Keep chatting and more importantly open up to those I trust and SAY THANK YOU’S to those I appreciate 🌟⭐️🤗.
Also I’m going ahead first with my inner strength in a new sense of me. A more determined me , a stronger me. One that’s not taking things laying down. Turning a new leaf in inner strength.
Amen.Goodnight to me and the nights sky.
Positively Adrian x
Edited etc.. 🌿 30th March 2023.
