It’s Sunday Morning and the first one in June. Today is my late Mum’s Birthday. Born in 1933 , my mum would have been ninety . So here’s wishing her happy birthday in the Diamond fields above.
I think I don’t recognise my Mum enough and towards her latter years we bonded well. Her love for was probably always there , but I struggled with my Mum’s alcoholism all through my school and young Adult days. Alcoholism is a disease so they say. So is there different degrees of being an alcoholic? Is there just an addictive weekly routine of drinking side or a full blown life destroying element? . Gee another minefield 😁.
This is why I have a strong belief that children are our future. I just wonder how children come into this world, are they really wanted or are they just a byproduct of heated passions? . But generally when children arrive, they are loved .. Of course not everyone is so lucky to be able to have children, some absolutely yearn to have them but struggle. This subject is like a huge Pandora’s box, and something else to be debated in every which way.😁.
What I’m trying to say is , if we bring children into this world, we as human beings ought INVEST AS MUCH AS WE CAN IN OUR CHILDREN. To a live life fuelled with alcohol and possibly drugs , like cocaine is no fun for family life. In fact it’s a destroyer of quality of life.
This then has a ripple affect on your whole family. So what is going on here? . Is it not time to REINVEST in YOURSELF without all this stuff.
Living a life that contributes to the quality of your life and those in your inner circle and community you live can trigger self worth. All we have to do is keep trying, keep knocking on the doors of possibilities and WANTING TO CHANGE and get help .
Yes we have tough days, my childhood and young adulthood. Also Like recently for me, but I could feel it coming, I could feel myself slipping into something unwanted in my life.
🌿This is depression or the negative mass , not drugs or anything like it. 🌿I crashed internally , found help from a friend or two , explored everything to try and get out of this mindful mess, then started to move out into healthy way of living again.
Simples haha, I just had to try and also RELAX with who I am . RELAX with the thought ‘ I can handle everything that comes my way’ , and somethings you can’t fix. Somethings you just have to let go of! .
As a friend said to me this week, ‘HAVE MORE FAITH IN YOURSELF’. Wondrous words from a wondrous person. 🌟🤗.
Oow I’ve wanted to say this for a while now . Just think of how beautiful a child’s life would be if you fully invested into learning in every which way, loving and experiencing and exploring all new ways of living. Not in printing your life’s worries and bad attitudes on to them and neglecting them. If we have a problem in life , then simples , GET TO THE NITTY GRITTY and start fixing it. It may take your whole life, it may take a turn-of a thought , just start making a difference in a POSITIVE WAY. I have every admiration for those who TRY TO CHANGE FOR A BETTER LIFE STYLE.
I know life has its toils but going off my life experiences which in hindsight I’m very grateful for ,but at the time was absolutely awful . I’m proud of who I have become. I have many great friends in my life. But more importantly I’m a great friend to myself.
This is very important. This is the keystone to almost everything.
Sometimes in my times of struggle, I just wonder on what my Mum would say to help me. Yes I miss her , her in her wisdom. Mother hen I use to call her and I know I had many a year of emotional struggle with her addiction with alcohol. I had many a year of struggle with her alcoholism which destroyed her life in a way.
I guess I’m living proof you can get through all the horrible stuff, even in them times there would have been many blessings. You just have to find them. Unearth them gems in life and go with them. Cherish them and let go .. don’t squeeze life too tight. Let it be , let it flow. Arh Relax and enjoy who you are..
Best wishes on your travels,
Adrian . 🌟💪✨🤗😁
🌿3rd July 23.
