Hello Diary! ..
It’s been a while since we’ve touched base.
For weeks and weeks my head has been so west I wasn’t sure literally when this road was going to end. I’m gradually getting there .. with some assertive behaviour on the cards. I think I’ve been letting my mind get the better of me. I’ve had several chats with friends this week and before this. Some people I’ve just opened up and said , ‘ yep I’m not okay’. Others I said I’m middling, not really wanting to express too much of what’s going on inside me. Also not wanting to express a dullness onto the lovely people in my life. Some of you just continue to SPARKLE AWAY, and I love them for this. Yeah it’s true. What’s more interesting is we are have our issues in life but it doesn’t take the pain away inside. Sometimes it’s takes an almighty look within ourselves to find a solution but generally I have to talk things through with my friends. I’m forever grateful for their support.??? .
Though I did open up to a good mate on Wednesday evening after The fitness group I attend in Southport. We had a good chat after i began opening up about things on my mind. Stuff has just been piling up recently,, letting things get on top of me in a negative way. It’s truly hasn’t been a good place, even though there’s been so much good going on around me and shown to me by my friends. I’ve simply struggled to see the positives within myself.
Now the tide is turning with the my commitment to feel better and feel the POSITIVES AND NEW DAWN POSSIBILITIES are opening up NEW doors . Only by chatting things through I’ve found solutions to my problems. It’s took a while as there’s been several issues at anyone time , I seemed to be a magnet for bad energy. Not nice . X .
In this haze I completely lost my inner smile for weeks and weeks. Landing myself in the land of uncertainty for many reasons . Loosing faith in me , has lead me into a land of disconnection with myself and others on a deeper level. It seemed everything I was faced with had a negative edge to it. I just couldn’t find the motivation and positive drive to propel myself into the land of feeling good inside. I’ve been searching for the connection as I usually do , but for some strange reason I wasn’t finding the gems. The one solace in my life is the CONNECTION WITH NATURE and taking them beautiful photos of moments and special dates with Nature. This is my go to place for tapping into something greater than myself. Also sometimes my Grandsons can help me with their joy and laughter , like in my solo trip out with them on Thursday to Windmill Animal Farm in Burscough.
I’ve had some great times in Linedancing with friends and on the dance floor of all the magic places to be. One week a couple of weeks ago I completed a dance called “WHAT A SONG CAN DO”. It was truly amazing completing the dance in tact with no fluffs and with only one other person on the dance floor with me. We got applause as we finished the dance. We danced beautifully and with a joy. ???. My usual dance teacher was away on holiday on this occasion and did miss her inner and outer smile that normally fills the room. Though our stand in teacher did ever so well. ?.
I’ve Also joined a group on Facebook a month or two back who project a positive support group and attitude towards living in a great light. THE PAVELKA COMMUNITY- Eat -sweat -Think-Connect. This is one beautiful group of people from around the world sharing their Positive experiences and loves in this beautiful safe place. I am so privileged to be part of them. They also support one another. They’ve been there for me, and that’s wonderful ??✨.
What support do you have in your lives?
I wish you all so well.. and so much happiness and inner wealth and health, that it ripples out of you helping you and others.
Take care and shine , I’m now on the mend , the clouds are clearing and my connection with who I am is re booting again.
Lots of love and hugs,
Positively ADRIAN ???????✨?.
If you have anything you’d like to express, please get in touch..
“Hot love” ( Marc Bolan )