Evening to me and you..
This evening finds me with an open mind.
A feeling of comfort , complete clarity and satisfaction knowing how far I’ve traveled over my Personal Growth Journey. Yes it’s taken many a year to get here.. but in this moment I feel quite happy.
This evening I’ve been looking through some of my old letters and cards from my Friend Susan Jeffers in 🇺🇸 USA. Sadly she’s passed away a few years ago but has left me in awe of all the GOODNESS and POSITIVITY she brought to the world. Leaving a vast legacy behind her with an incredible abundance of light and love. Susan’s Husband Mark and team are keeping her Smile alive.
Sometimes I lose sight of my vision or my purpose or my goal in life but my friends , who are wonderful and my little reminders from Susan’s letters bring me back. There’s so much Wonder out there and as each day develops I notice that somethings are just meant to be . I find some amazing moments that are so intertwined it’s mind blowing . Mind blowing in a really beautiful way! . I’m going to say that word again BEAUTIFUL, because it’s not said enough in my opinion.
🌿 It’s certainly a wonder to me how one opportunity leads to another. Like a series of open doors! . Is it a series coincidences or is a case of like attracts alike, or is it the “ Grand Design “ , the universe has your back kind of thinking? . I feel like I’m being lead into a land of positivity. This is something that Susan talks about in some of her looks. How one thing leads to another. It’s purely amazing and pleasing to all parts of me. It certainly puts a smile on my face as well as my Friends. 💛. So BEAUTIFUL again! .
It’s not all roses and delight,
There can be problems in our daily lives and I’ve had a few recently but I’m hoping it’s all in hand. I’m going to say something here which may contrive as being negative in someone’s eyes , just for the fact I’m thinking of the most horrible thing to have happened to me in the last 9 months. This was repeating the oath in a Family Court in the IOM, and of course a feeling of being treated like a criminal, simply horrible. Err.. I didn’t like it. Maybe thats the public speaking part of it too , I wasn’t confident and I simply made a mess of it, well the oath I did.
🌿 Another moment last year were I felt deep trauma inside is were I thought I was losing a key member of staff. This was a horrible experience but in the end I managed to get through it to a happier conclusion. When a negative blast falls on me , yes it shakes me and it can be some time before I see the light. 🌿Thankfully these periods are shorter as to what it use to be. Sometimes in the past I would be a low mood for weeks. I’m getting better at be a recovering negative thinker. Yippee! 😁. Saying this , these days I’m always looking for a way through . It’s all about a passion to live in a positive light.
On the POSITIVE side with the court case , I was there in love for a connection with my Grandson. Although we didn’t gain any further physical contact with of Grandson , our indirect connection continues . As long as he knows he’s part of our lives that’s the main thing.
Anyway like I say , I’ve come a long way , even in recent years where I felt I didn’t want to live. Since then I’ve worked through everything with my counsellor, that’s the special part opening up to a professional in a safe environment. With someone who gets how you feel and helps you work through things. Sometimes it’s incredibly difficult, sometimes you want to cry, especially doing “ Mirror work” . Wow it’s heart pumping stuff.
Nevertheless I’m in a marvellous place with incredible friends. A great group of lads at work and the customers who don’t necessarily know all about me , some know I’m dedicated to their green space and I’m a likeable chap ! Haha.
I still have my insecurities about connecting and opening up sometimes and sometimes I completely surprise myself with the joy that fills my heart when I simply relax and say hi or Smile . The simple things in life are the best sometimes. My friends are simply amazing too. I’m so lucky. 🥰✨.
I will post a couple of Susan’s letters to share her light. Hope you like if your reading 😁.
Ps, old address.
Sending my goodness out there.
Until next time, relax , smile awhile.Positively me x
If anything resonates with you, please get in touch x
( If I were really important here, what would I be doing?) Taken from
“Life is Huge “ by Susan Jeffers phd.
