So there I have it .
Yesterday being somewhat great as I impressed on my day.
Yesterday, Friday was as good as I hoped it would be.
Although it finished with news that I didn’t expect, of an unsettling type, two lots in fact .. Some of which is disturbingly sad. Nevertheless yesterday was a really good day for me.
Most of my days are good these days, and this is just how I hold myself, in a better than good light.
Good is ok but pushing myself to be a little bit more feels better🌟🥰💪😁.
Some people may say ‘ you’re okay as you are.’ I hear this often and it is pleasing and relaxing to hear with my fair ears. Sometimes I say I am enough too. Sometimes when the frightened person or little boy inside needs a little more reassurance, I have nurture and hold myself firm in order to move on through the obstacles that lay before me. This then turns into something quite extraordinary to feel. A good sense of wellbeing.💪🥰🌟✨.
My day yesterday was in fact Counselling day , yeah! , well only for an hour.
Having that Someone to talk to of the professional kind is my special place. We spoke on video chat like we’ve done since the outbreak of coronavirus. Before our video chats we met in Tarleton, in a health spa whereby it was closed for normal use on a Monday, wasn’t I the lucky one 😁.
The conversation always starts with the question “ How have you been? “ Sometimes it takes a while for me to get going but not this time. I opened with a chat about my Blog here and its direction. The other lengthy chat was about my Sister and her sad decline as a person and how I’m on a mission to try and help her .
There has been some interesting , raw , conversations over the years , yes years . There was a time where I couldn’t go beyond a week before I had to open and express myself to Gillian. I certainly needed more help those days.
My chat yesterday ( Friday) was simply amazing and my counsellor was beaming with a biggest smile I’d ever seen from her. Such a beautiful moment. Gillian proud of my efforts , of especially when I recall my effort and experiences of self improvements and the fact I’m always or nearly always trying my best to improve on a matter in hand.
To see a smile like that was so warming. But something that still has me wondering even now is a question Gillian asked.
After explaining about my pursuits in my pleasure activities, like Pilates and PT training and what these mean to me,, like human connection and a form of spirituality especially with Pilates.
For me these activities isn’t just about attending to gain strength or more flexibility. It’s about the humanness , the bounce and positivity these people give me.
So My counsellor asked” So you attend these places for connection and for what these people give me too ? …. hmmmm…
This has for questioning what I’m doing. I’m wondering whether I can find my own connection with my spiritual side by being on my own in nature and possibly taking Photography more seriously? .. I definitely wish to do more with photography 🌟💚🦋🌸. Yes I do love human connection too, for the fun , chat , getting to know my friends more, opening up more, is this wrong for wanting this ? … X
Signing out of my blog here..
If you have any questions or ideas that will help I’m all ears..please get in touch. what is your view ? .. xx
From my heart to yours ,
Positively Adrian x 🌟.
