Mental as anything ⭐️😉.

Mental as anything!

As the song goes “ Live it up” ! .

I have their album but for me sadly it’s not to my taste, especially with me coming from a Rock background.
The song “  live it up “ is fab anyway! .

This is not why I’m writing. I just feel mental as anything! . Sometimes I feel like a crazy son of a gun. Not that my Dad is a gun.. For me  I’m sure I am a futuristic warrior of surprise and positivity,  well some of the time. 😃.

At the moment I feel out of sorts with my mind doing twirls and figuring out things.. I think I’ve lost my mind.. 😂.  Perhaps overthinking is is creeping in again, NOwt new then hey ?! 🤣.

Hey maybe it’s the weather, rain rain . Well it doesn’t help, I sometimes I don’t know my own mind . Or am I to scared to express who I really am and look a fool in front of my friends.. ? 🤷🏼‍♂️.

Time to shake this feeling off.. 

Maybe it’s a case of making mistakes, learning and moving on. The only thing being , some mistakes are costly in monetary terms as well as hours spent wasted overthinking! .

I’ve done much soul searching and the both things that are buzzing around in my head just don’t sit right with me..

Not so long ago i when had my meaningful conversation with my friend Rafa, he asked if I knew my own mind.. ? As he was getting a little frustrated with me. Well what’s a man to say? When your not sure?!. Am I brave enough to express who I am without the repercussions of looking a fool in front of others.. There is some niggles in my head  at the moment.

So two mind blowing  thoughts that have me confused , really I know the answers but I’m concerned of the outcome if I express them out loud.
One, I know people are going to say I’m bonkers for even thinking it! . The other thing is regarding my Grandson in Isle of Man.
This one is easiest to talk about strangely enough.

So as it stands , we , my wife and I are in the of the court system across the water.  I’ve already expressed my thoughts to Susan my wife this week. My thoughts are to walk away , but as it is  at the moment there is a court welfare officer who is collecting the information from all sides including Alex himself.  (Somehow I think we’ve been here before as this is our second court case . )One thing for sure we don’t want to go against his wishes. Apparently his wishes are he doesn’t want to see us from fear of upsetting his mum.  Hmm . Difficult one. The whole idea of a specialist child therapy person who was consulted privately .This was through the solicitors was to find out the truth . This was to encourage Alex to play through some sort of therapy as to what his likes and dislikes were. His mum stopped that from taking place.. So yeah.. it’s one of them ain’t it?!.

Walking away from the whole situation might only be the right thing to do for the sake of Alex and for us and the upset and stress it may cause him and us.
December is when the case is being heard again and is a tough one . I can’t go ahead trying to deal with people who I feel in my own experiences, who are so horrible.  They have no valid reason for either me or grandma not to see Alex .They are going off ancient history of a volatile relationship the mummy and my stepson. He has nothing to do with our case to see Alex. But also as it stands the mum wishes to remove the Dad’s side of family of the little boys life away. That stinks if I may say so.. That seems to be the way of the world.. Some people just wish to win at all costs .. I’m not after winning. But dealing with people like this who are throwing everything but the kitchen sink at us , they are pretty mean.. 

Hey ho ! .

Onto the other little morsel that’s absolutely doing my head in at the moment ABSOLUTELY more than the Isle of Man , Is my van designs. One , I think there just a little over the top , two I’m not sure if the natural approach would’ve been better. With a photograph of mine , meaning a job or a flower scene I’ve took . There’s certainly a lot to look at..Trouble I really can’t change one van without the other. My gut is churning and that shouldn’t be the case , should it?.

I know people might think I’m mad .. but I think I have to go with my gut feelings, and think it’s a change in design ..There it is . I think I’ve made the decision, know to contact the designer or am I he?😂. Well the guy that puts my ideas together.

Gee I hope your feeling okay after all this chat , sometimes change is crap.. 😂.

Sometimes it’s ace. 🥰.

Lots of love from me ..

Take Care 

Adrian Supersonic! 💫😁.

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All words written in my own experiences 💥