Hi on this Monday morning.
It’s started off a dull and damp day.. thankfully it’s not dull in my heart. I feel my life has many plus’s and on balance, I’m happier then I’ve Ever been. This feeling might be something I’m in awe with , because we’ve just had our Grandsons with us this weekend. It was blazingly beautiful. Just chilling as much as I could , with my diatomite Alfie and quiet Sam , as well as the normal Na Na !. Helping more this weekend with my wife having broken her right wrist, thankfully it’s not a bad break but nevertheless she’s in some pain.
🦔Oow heck I remember breaking my wrist back in the mid 90’s. Maybe I’m guessing on that one. I remember so well , it was a Saturday morning and working for my ex boss. We where working in Kevin Sheedy’s ( ex Toon footballer) back garden. I remember pruning a climbing plant on the back of their house. The stepladders I was standing on wobbled and I went flying. I remember my boss saying, you must get an X-ray and by the way you can’t claim on my insurance because your not meant to be working! .. It was a extra Saturday morning . Nice one hey ? . . I never did like working for him . I stuck it out, mainly because I had no confidence in changing anything. And that’s another story..
I had tickets to see Newcastle play Everton at Goodison Park the next day .. hells bells it was painful. We , my mate Tony who I was working with that day attended the match the day after. It was painful but I enjoyed the match. I think we won, it was an fa cup game.
I’ve so much sympathy for my Susan. 🦔
Back to the Question, So what or who is filling your void? . I’m coming to the realisation that a lot of us have some sort of void to be filled !. I know exactly what mine is . How about you? That something you haven’t treated yourself to for a while.. hmm oh yes.
Is it just one of your many walks, a bike ride ( that’s not even got off the ground with me yet) , not seen a friend in ages, not connecting with nature?, that’s another thing I need to do more of.
I’m wondering whether, if I do more of these outward going activities, maybe it’ll lessen the biggest void of all????. I think that’s my life at the moment. I think that’s what I’m doing.. I’m not sure how long I can keep going , because the void is still there. Hmm.. This is giving me feelings of things I struggle dealing with. This feeling is strong and frustratingly insecure, maybe I’m just overthinking it.? But it doesn’t take it away!.
Nevertheless I’ve battled with for some time and mostly, I just to try to put it to one side.. Try and put it in a pigeon hole of its own..
Perhaps I need to be stronger in my other pursuits of pleasure, to distract me .. or am I kidding myself? Or do I continue in this mental and emotional torture . This is my question to myself.. This where I’m going to leave you as I continue my day xx .You know !, Writing about this has helped me tremendously. They do say , ‘ a problem shared , is a problem halved!’.
😁Continue your day in love and faith in you x
Adrian x 🌟👍🌟
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