Yep , Friday can’t come soon enough for me. The need to chat is becoming almost like a feeling of teetering on the edge of something i’m struggling describing. I’ve been having to push myself into the realm of positivity, trying to get beyond my negativity within my soul or letting it grab too much of a hold of me. I feel like I’m Trying to grab my sparkles and shine them , polishing them up has been a uphill task at the moment. I most certainly don’t like feeling like this, nor do I wish to give you any bad vibrations. I just need to talk and thankfully my counselling is appearing this Friday. Err.. I don’t know if it’s enough just to talk to Gillian, I’m thinking I might go back to ‘ Andy’s Man Club’, as I’m unsure if I can continue living on my own. This may sound defeatist , I certainly don’t wish to project any ugliness into the world. I’ve worked hard today on my personal well-being, hitting my goals of the day and that’s paperwork and organising people to come and work at my house as I’ve one or two jobs to be struck off my list. So I feel proud there.
Magical Tuesday is here and dancing was good.very hot , that so I wondered how the heck was I going to get my cowboy boots off. I managed with help from Nathan. Hehe .. he has his use’s 🤣. I also had a beautiful conversation from friend who’s been away on little trips around the uk visiting her friends with her husband. Yep it was life lightening experience those few words she spoke. I’m purely not worthy of your beautiful mind.
At this present time I’m struggling with my own identity, my own purpose, my own positivity, my anything to be honest. Even though people see me differently and perhaps better than I see myself right now. Sorry guys.. I just feel lost at the moment with my inner connection having done a disappearing act. Oh dear! . I fear I might have to put my return to Pilates on hold as it’s a Monday evening class. I just wonder whether the need to chat to others is a stronger need right now.. Gosh I need to sleep and I’m going to head that way in a minute. I sincerely hope I’ve not upset you with this language, that’s if I ever post this.. 🫤😁🥰.
Lots of loveAdrian . X
