Morning to you! .
Getting closer to the TRUTH of you , oh my word. It’s LIFE OPENING.
This feeling comes to me after another mind opening, heart opening, feeling exploring session with my counsellor. Gosh I feel like I’m an American! . They say everyone has a counsellor in the USA! . Whether that is true or not I don’t know. But simple ol me , well yes I do.It’ll be four years counselling in November this year (2022) . Four years , it’s mind blowing how long it’s been.
Firstly making contact with Gillian as my life was in crisis mode. Or this is how I felt. I needed someone to talk to that I didn’t know , and of a professional standing. Someone to completely help me.. I had spoke to my good friend in Rafa. So both he and my counsellor knew how I felt . This brings emotions to me as I write, with a little ache in my chest and watery eyes.
They where certainly some dark days there, where I just wanted the earth or sometimes a canal I walked by to swallow me up. There is still a thread of this running through me now, that little one percent . One day I hope to shift this from my mentality.
I’ve worked so hard and passionately on myself within this counselled years and beyond. It does feel good to be here right now. I think I’ve come full circle in my sessions with Gillian, as we spoke again about something that is like a void in my life. This last session was so truthful of myself.
So conclusion is, my life won’t move forward until I deal with this situation. Oh gee whiz.. Great one.( Smiling)As I opened up to Gillian , I explained I couldn’t see my life without her in it. At the moment we’ve been having monthly chats and they’ve been going on for at least two years. Before this , or especially the first 6 months to a year it was weekly. I wasn’t in a good place then.
So to have someone to talk to is essential for me , I don’t know about you guys? . Maybe you talk to your partners , husbands and wives, Mum’s, Dad’s if you are close. Even our Grandparent’s? . That is a very good place to be. Yes , I’d say this is what is missing from my life , maybe a little more private intimacy about personal stuff , thoughts and emotions that need to be said with the right person.So going back to being able to talk openly to someone, yes well . I did mention to Gillian I had thought of starting a Men’s Support Group. Where men can talk openly about anything they want to. Gillian explained she thought there might be things like that already, perhaps I could join. If there is, I’d happily join up. So talking to friends, as did to a friend on Friday evening. I explained to him , what I had spoken about with Gillian . About the mens group , he just looked to the skies . His answer is of not openness, but of blaming. Hmm..
At the moment I have only Rafa in the male gene of people to chat to. In females, well I need to start to chat openly to my wife.. This is a big one. Once it’s done it’s done. Hopefully things might become easier after that. .. Relationships hey.. oh for a simple life.. haha..Enjoy your day guys.. I hope you are okay after reading this.. Take care and be open to your world.
From my heart to yours 🧡.Positively Adrian xx 🌟✨🌟
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All words written in my own experiences 👍😜
