Is that a good question? . It’s pretty late on for me on this long Thursday. After being awake for most of last night until about 5am. 4:30 am I had a lovely video chat from a good friend now in Phill, who now lives in Australia. Well Perth to be exact! I’ve spoke to other folk who have lived in the outbacks of the cattle country and the city’s. They believe Perth isn’t anything like a part Australia. More like England! As there’s more English people there , then Australian folk? Maybe, I don’t know.
So Phill phoned me , as he must of realised I was awake , from a post I put on Facebook. Yes indeed that huge social media platform that can take over your life if your not careful.
Recently I’ve been trying to reduce the flow onto this platform , as I’ve been feeling somewhat overwhelmed and feeling not my true self. In other words trying to keep some of me private. To turn my attention on myself rather than expectations of others. Our lives are about us as individuals and who we can be. This is my aim. Oh I forgot, my chat.. hehe. Yep it was absolutely beautiful to see him chat to me via messenger. I was trying to keep the conversation down low as people where in bed . I’m pleased he took a chance to speak. He “Dared to Connect “. Good man. So how do I know him ? . This goes back at least eleven or twelve years , when my stepson Nick brought home his old school chum . Yes Phill. Susan remembered him from Nick’s school days. Of course this was the first time I’d met him. They must of met in the pub or somewhere. It went from there really. He began to have a few days of casual work with me and it was good. Though Phill clashed with another member of staff, and I think phill moved on a little. Remembering his story , he was kinda in a lost place, I knew exactly how he felt .
I’ve had a million and one feelings over the years.. and they keep on coming. I find it weird as one or two people in my life or I could name one person who doesn’t give a shit. Not in a callus way but my more caring for myself. He has an open passion about himself. Oh what a feeling. He says whats the worst someone can do to you .? They aren’t going to kill you.Some of my friends or well all have their lovely strengths. I’m still learning mine,or I’m having this great feeling of being vulnerable. As I move through my life and recent days , I seem to have lost that beautiful connection I had as I concentrated on loving and healing myself a couple of weeks ago. Especially in those conversations and connections with other people. I seemed to fallen off the self love trial. Thus experiencing a little more rawness. My goodness will be back soon. I have faith in this .. 🥰
So highlights of my week are;
- Having my very first Bullfinch in the garden feeding on sunflower hearts. A wonderful moment.
- Having close times with my Grandson loves.
- self realisation of where I am.
- Connecting with my line dance friends through text.
- connecting with my personal trainer.
- completing some good work.
- Chatting to Phill in Australia.
- Asking my wife for her guidance on business decisions
- Reading from “ Dare to Connect “ . The only book for me right now.
- Meeting my mate Dave who was visiting from Newquay , Cornwall. Awesome 😎.
- Having a restful time over Easter.
- Writing to you guys here. ( that’s if you are here🤣)
- Journalling.
- Having a realisation That I’m at one with NOT WALKING AWAY FROM ALEX)
- Taking a grip of my business and turning into a direction , loving what I’m doing again.
- Having self respect in standing firm on a decision I made to NOT to indulge in conversation,with someone whom is very distasteful to my very being. I nodded politely, but that was it. I’m not giving someone the pleasure of ridiculing at his blinking pleasure and at my expense. I’ve had many years of being bullied by an ex boss. I’m not wasting my beauty on him.. Some people say forgiveness is the way forward.. well I’m well stuck there.! ..
- Working through business solutions at work. making decisions, moving forward.
I’ve Had a bone crunching massage on my sore toe & feet, arm and very tight calf’s. So yes blinking very PAINFUL. Oh my word. Ouch! . Not for the faint hearted.
I hope this gives you a little insight of only a few moments and goodies we can achieve in our days of a week. I’ve quite possibly missed loads out.. if I could look more openly perhaps!.? . I hope you’ve had a peaceful, intriguing, powerful, loving, inspiring, thoughtful week. 👍🥰🌟.
Lots of love from my heart to yours,
Adrian
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👊all words written in my own experiences 👊
