It’s 1am this Wednesday morning . I’ve awoken feeling irritable as my mind has started thinking again and the stomach feels a little empty. Another cup of tea by my bedside.
Recently I had a lads afternoon out with three men that use to work for me and wow what a few hours it was. There was lots of love and fun shared. Hugs too. A hugely amazing , inspiring and respectful time out. I would trust these boys with my life. . X. All three have been there for me in my moments of desperation and I won’t go there on that one.. But also some amazing funny moments, learning moments, treasured moments with their families too, including good ol men chats.
( I can’t go on without mentioning another mate in Rafa – who has been an incredible man friend too✨) .
Like wise the boys said on the evening I’ve been there for them too, one of them also went on to say that I had been like a father to him . Yes truly there was good conversations flowing that afternoon , that turned into night of singing and fun. 😁. This is one group of friends I’d like to think we’ll continue to be close and do things together as a group. Have fun and conquer our fears ( mine😂) . Looking forward to our times ahead 🥰✨🌟.
Tonight was so good for me in dancing. I’m trying harder to become a better dancer by trying more, but also to just be me.. It is quite a feeling. There becomes my problem I guess , trying too hard. Why not just BE ME . GO WITH FLOW AND CHILL THE F😁CK out.
Last night I began to say to myself mentally I love this dance floor, as I did in those moments . Now that’s something to be so glad about.. There is certain dances I love , like “ In walked you” , Morning Sun, amongst others, which I simply can’t bring to mind right now as my mind is way tired. Our teacher selects a great variation of dances, ones to test us but always to have Fun too. I hope I’m becoming a better student of dance, haha.
The other delights of my evening was making conversation to friends I’d not spoken to in ages , new friends too , and you know what , it was amazing. Just being open and interested in my friends and being open . Maybe I ought to give over writing and do more talking.. haha, what you think? . 🥰😁🌟.
Sometimes I do think I ought to just be less open and keep a whole more to myself, which I’m on with right now. Not just that but be more loving, caring and respectful of my own needs. Honour my own spirit and think of my life being Abundant. It certainly is worth it. I’m going to try my hardest to bring more love and light to my life, fun and lighten up too. This is where I am at this present time. I am not closing my heart , I am just protecting my energy and trying to give myself more of the goodness I deserve. No one else is going to do it for me.
It’s not all about just love but living in my own truth , feeling the fear and doing it anyway ( Susan Jeffers- God bless her soul) . It’s about letting go of inner wounds and new hurts and turning them into blessings. It’s about making that choice to live on the bright side , honouring myself , my harmony and those of my friends too. I’ve probably said enough for now.. haha. My friends are so good to me and they deserve me to be more deserving to them. We all have our own boundaries to learn to love our own selves and honour who we are as human beings. . This leads to or overflows into my work life as I am one person and I take myself wherever I go.. I hope you guys are having an abundant life 🥰🌟😁💎💚.
Loving me , loving you,
Take care and enjoy your week ahead xx
Positively. Adrian. 🌟🤗💚
