7th February 2022.
Good morning to the Gorgeousness in you! .
Today I find myself in a new light of optimism after plugging away over the last few days. Having plenty good ol’ chats with the right people. Saying hello and spending time with my dad who lays in a care home bed. Chatting to my Uncle Edward in Workington and the most gorgeous moments of having little Alfie, the little boy who touches my heart like little Alex use to do. In deed our home has been full of kids and fun all weekend. The joys of life, tantrums too but not too many. Normally the ADHD kid has me worked up.. Just one of my many challenges in life , some good times too.Today started well with my new breath of fresh positivity, though as the day drew on the stress started to ripple in again. Is there no end to this feeling.. As I drove into the outskirts of Southport from Burscough I began to mentally say to myself ‘r e l a x ‘ r e l a x , r e l a x. Breathe slowly, take it easy. I have a jacket of positivity over me.. it kinda helped for a while. Now I’m home, I’m feeling tense and stressed yet again. This is maybe as I got side tracked today, so some of my things on my to do list didn’t get done. The list is going to be redone for another day tomorrow. There’s plenty to do. I mustn’t get on my own back about things I haven’t achieved in the day. I , we be kinder to ourselves.
Kinder is key. I for one am toooo hard on myself. I’ve achieved much today. I ( we) mustn’t forget this. 🥰👊.
Today I had the most painful and muscle relaxing therapy massage on my troublesome arms, shoulders, neck and a little bit of a head massage. Oh my gosh. It certainly was sooo different and reached to parts that others haven’t. Thankfully a new friend who I met through work gave me a cancellation appointment this morning. I’m so grateful for the this session.
Though I feel a tiny bit stressed still within my body, I’m not sure how the heck I’m gonna be free of this. Maybe some relaxation exercises, maybe stop thinking about things I can’t do anything about. Maybe get on with this I can. I must do something..
Maybe I need more time for self, actually time on own somewhere.. Breathing in the goodness of the wilderness. 💚Time delay in getting back to you. The day now is Monday 7th March. Yes indeedy I must of put this post on hold. I don’t know why. Perhaps other things came into my mind. Lots of golden moments have happened since. We’ve done lots of the good stuff haven’t we ? . Yep stresses come into our lives too. But so do the marvellousnesses. The balance is key , more of the lightness for me, I tell you.
Anyway less of the boring stuff hey.. it’s been a big Moment Monday . With positivity coming out of Isle of Man 🇮🇲. Very positive report from the CWO court Welfare Officer , writing a recommendation that our grandson ought to get to know about his Dad’s side of the family. Thus us hopefully having contact too. Court Day Wednesday, so I pray for some good news. It’s been an incredibly beautiful and tough time reading allegations of things we haven’t done.
This will complete a eight year battle to try and have our little grandson in our lives . We still haven’t achieved Peace between the two families but hopefully we’ll have a SECOND court order . To have our little grandson know us and know who his other family is, is a win win. I love us to go to mediation and move forward with a peace between the two families. To put aside all this hatred towards us.. You never know, it might happen for the sake of the little boy.. I’m not jumping for joy.. it’s still all up in the air. Even if the result is good on Wednesday. There’s still a long way to go with helping the little boy with life story work and by a professional of course.
As ever we send our love to Ukraine 💙💛💙💛.
Positively Adrian xx
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👊All written words in my own Experiences 👊
